圓滿

陽光明媚.22C

好累.

腳指頭好痛.

吃不到原本訂的葡菜很是生氣.(因為提早兩星期訂的.那個女人居然沒寫下來.

不過後來到了旁邊吃鐵板燒,大家還是高高興興的.

謝了.

不管了

T3.但外面很平靜的.30C

剛收到program coordinator(中文是甚麼?)的電郵,希望我們這些畢業生可以做一個關於某個必修科的問卷.我最喜歡填問卷的了,於是趕快打開那個網址.

問卷很簡單,只有寥寥幾個問題.最後問了想要改變這科的甚麼呢?譬如說,換作是自修科等等.然後還有「其他」一欄.

雖然這科對我來說是很簡單,而且也跟我毫無關係,但我填了(是要填名字的!)...

把教授換掉.

反高潮

雲.29C

最後一課分數很快就打出來了,於是不久之後(也即上星期)也收到了「畢業信」.

看到小球那篇,然後再看看這張毫無情感的通知書.欸,這到底是甚麼一回事呢?

雖然說是成人班,(除非是有神童迅速讀完本科再讀這個吧.不過我看神童也不會走這條track.我覺得我這學位是用來賺錢而不是真的為了培養人才的.)但畢竟我們都付過學費、花過時間心血去拿那些學分的呀.來個洋鬼子最愛的Congratulations!也不為過吧?(事事都以英美為尊,怎麼這次居然沒有?!)

原本還很期待會收到很多郵件說「哦,畢業了,要做甚麼甚麼,還有XYZ」的.

沒有.就只這麼一封冷冰冰的信.

多反高潮.

還是,我的心智還停留在用湯匙餵食的時代?!

總結

T8>T3的天昏地暗中.超大雨.26C

今晚無意間去查成績,連最後一科的都出來了.那,我算是畢業囉?不過,畢業禮要等到十一月呢.

嗯,原本還以為這次成績可以好一點,是有進步啦,但最後還是個中等的成績.雖說這種學位大概不再太在意成績是甚麼,但畢竟自己有過期望,現在這樣子就覺得很浪費.

說得也是啦,問問自己,我有多盡力去學習和溫習?如果付出那麼少,又怎麼能期望會科科都A?自己也知道自己不是考天才波的材料的.

不過是自己付錢的,起碼不會覺得對不起老爸老媽!

浪費的,還有跟同學打交道的機會.不過自己本來就不太會,而且是不是我自己態度有問題呢?總有點不屑.看到有些同學連群結黨的,圍起來就大聲講,小聲笑... 也分不清是忌妒別人能那麼容易跟人家成為好朋友,還是看不起這種疑似幼稚的行為?不過我覺得是我自己的問題啦,怪人如我,還是比較適合當獨行俠的.

還有,當然是沒有好好利用學校的資源和欣賞學校的環境.天氣好的時候,那個海中間還有一點點白色的風帆,煞是寫意的.我是應該要去用一下學校的游泳池、運動場,還有圖書館...最後,好像只有在學校燒過一次烤,在圖書館開過一次會和在考試前臨急抱佛腳過兩次.

所以別問我學校怎麼走,裡面有甚麼.我走到那裡,還是會迷路的.

歸屬感?沒有呢.

遺憾?有一點點吧.但我知道自己是不會去做任何事去補救的.

就算是圓了要在本都上大學的心願吧.上過了,才知道要好好好好去感謝老爸供書教學.真的,不是我崇洋,但在彼邦,讀書的氣氛真的不一樣.在那裡當然大家都是為了要進IB,但上課時,他們真的會為了要了解那些原理,那些意念而不停提出自己的意見、問題,去跟同學教授請教直到清清楚楚為止.是不一樣的.

所以呢,就算是拿了這張文憑,對我真的會有用嗎?我還是覺得我懂的,我之前已經懂了.不懂的呢,有認識多一點點,但進步不多.真悲哀.不過看到有同學成功轉工,也似乎對這課程很滿意的樣子.應該是我的問題吧.

早睡

多雲.驟雨.26C

我發覺早睡早起精神好是騙人的話.還是因為我睡債太深,早睡的話還是得晚起才有足夠精神?

話說過去這個週末是打算很努力地早睡早起,趕快寫好那篇爛文,好讓我在週日整天還有時間對著那些雞精發呆.誰知道,如意算盤連一聲都不響.睡是早睡了(週六還十一點半已就寢!),第二天最後還是要七點半才願意爬起來,比原定的時間足足遲了一個半小時.惱人的是,起來之後精神依然頹靡,更枉論能不能集中了.

說到不能集中,昨天情況更為嚴重.下午坐在廳裏邊打文邊聽那賑災節目,心想如果唱得難聽或是沒興趣時大可不理.最後還是眼睛一直盯住了電視,連哪些暗星在台下作呼籲時也看個不亦樂乎(主要是老媽一直在問這是誰那是誰).所以最後還是得在深夜作戰才完成.唉,禮拜五的音樂會的票要去退了.(十萬個不高興!!!或是看看誰有興趣給我認購去.)

看來要我變成一個早睡早起的健康人需要走一段很漫長(既痛苦)的路.其實我不用長命,只要不要老時病痛多多就好了.

Did I say that?

Some clouds.17C

Problem with my classes is that they are not that interactive, as I've whined about it before - the students don't ask that many questions at all. If there were any raised, be assured that they would be coming out from the mouths of the foreigners in class (yes, exchange students or somehow... there are foreigners working here). Sometimes I have questions, but I tend to mumble comfortably in my seat and swallow them eventually. If I really can't hold them in, I usually ask during break or at the end of the class. So, look who's talking, I'm no good interactive student neither.

Sometimes I have lots of questions but I don't know to start with which so that I won't sound dumb. But there are just times that there is nothing I want to ask. It could be because I've lost interest in the class (so why did I take it in the beginning?) or I was simply brain-dead. And usually, when I have no questions to ask, I'll get stuck with the professor/lecturer in some confined space, and silence doesn't seem to be the gold at these moments - because I'm supposed to be all excited to get the chance to speak with him/her!

Anyway, one of those chances landed on me again tonight after class. I really should have dashed out of the classroom when the class ended but somehow I lingered and ended up in the same elevator with the lecturer and two other classmates. Seeing that nobody spoke (I should have followed suit), I pretended to be interested in one of the points in tonight's lecture and asked, "So if the model is a black box, how does the fund house actually sell them to clients?" [OK, that sounded pretty intelligent.]

"Based on their reputation," said the lecturer with a smile on his face.

"Oh," my mind went blank. It's that simple? People have so much money that they would just dish them out to someone who has a reputable track record, without knowing what the strategy or what they are investing in? Hmmm... 5 seconds later... "So, it's like buying a LV bag, it's purely based on the brand name?"

The lecturer still had the smile on his face, but was totally unresponsive. I consoled myself that he didn't catch that phrase.

But. O-M-G. Did I just blurt that out?!

I totally felt like I've just stepped out from Legally Blonde.

Gosh, I need sleep.

新低

哇.原本滿有把握的那科居然變成歷史新低.

今晚原本應該要看書做功課的也沒有執行.行動力也是達到了新低.

好呀,置諸死地而後生是我蠍子的看家本領.

我,出招!

「展望」明年

天色不錯.有幾片浮雲.21C

其實今天心情不錯.下午吃了頓好吃的午餐、每月報表全部完成(可是...好像越做越慢的!)、上課沒有釣魚(雖然差點就釣了...).可是一想到昨天和阿哥的談話,腦裏馬上亂作一團.

突然,很不想明年會來到.

原本的如意算盤是這樣的:

1 - 一月底去旅行
2 - 二、三月讀兩科
3 - 四、五月讀一科
4 - 元旦過後抓緊時間,培養好情緒準備那該死的考試[即與2、3同時進行]
5 - 積極準備邁向明天的事宜[即與2、3、4同時進行]

如果事事順利,最好六月放個假,喘喘氣,養養身子,然後邁進人生美好的下一步.

都說是如意算盤嘛,通常下一句接著的就是打不響呀!

其實即使沒有節外生枝,我也很懷疑我自己的能力和定力是否能使我完成我所計畫的.但無論如何,起碼偏差不會太大(當然除了5以外,因為外來因素影響太大了).

那到底現在變成怎樣呢?

話說長舌同事明年二月底該會升級成為媽媽.從農曆年開始打後三個多月他所負責的事情將需要別人來頂替.而阿哥喚我過去談話正是為了要我接手長舌同事的一大部分工作.因為這部分工作跟我之前那份工有直接關係,由我接手萬一出了甚麼問題要解決會比較容易.至於我手頭上的一部分將會交給暫時還不存在的新同事(如果到那時候還是不存在的話,將由阿哥接手.我對能聘到新同事實在沒有甚麼期望).可是這部分工作煩、悶、死線緊逼,還要重複三次呢!而且,由於不熟悉程序,可能要更長的時間才能完成.加上下個學期要上的科目都應該是功課頗為沉重的,因此真的對明年頭半年不敢寄予有抒一口氣的厚望.

先不要說能不能做到5,現在連2、3、4都覺得危危乎.可是又能怎樣?奴性甚重的我只好點首答應,並且如實告訴阿哥我明年原來的安排.口頭上當然說如果應付不了我就會把上課那邊拖長一點時間.可是我不想呀.我真的好想在明年夏天以後回復「自由身」!

其實,對於工作繁忙我一向覺得是應該的.因此最不爽的不是因為會變得非常忙碌,而是因為計畫好的無緣無故地被打亂了!我也知道做人要靈活一點,可是還是會覺得不高興和沮喪呀.好了,到時候見步行步就是了.也當是歷練提升吧(但,實在不覺得對自我進步會有甚麼幫助).

再自我安慰一點的想法就是「天將降大任於斯人也」.

希望我這副筋骨在明年被勞完後還有剩吧.

K教授金句

煙霞.驟雨.25C

實在受不了了!!!那個白痴教授上課盡解釋那些我們都懂的東西.真正是新的或我們不明白的,問他他卻語焉不詳.過了下課時間三十分鐘都在解釋無關痛癢的事.我不介意留下,可是我今天約了人,時間緊湊,不容這樣拖著.更可況講的都是沒建設性的?還是PY同學有吉士.K教授最後問大家有甚麼問題,PY同學居然指著課室牆上的掛鐘!

真的不是我不尊師重道,(今天原來是孔子誕,何解有如斯重大慶典卻事先完全沒有宣傳或公佈??)可是真的很受不了.原本對這科充滿期待和熱誠,現在完全比南極的冰川還要冷.

之前講過,被我討厭的人,連帶他所有行為舉動都會被我強烈厭惡.K教授的金句完全屬於這一類.每一個禮拜六已經要特別早起(比上班要更早!),還要耳朵受污染地聽著這些金句.真想死!

這裡只是摘錄,有些忘了... 記得再補吧.

看起來好像很tricky,其實很intuitive的.不說不知道,一說就知道. [PY同學心水第一位.國粵雙語廣播;而且說時面帶得意之色.因為還沒告訴我們到底有多intuitive.]

還可以接受嗎? [可以說不嗎?!]

are you comfortable with this? [usually after he's successfully confused us.]

點呀?舒唔舒服? [大佬,你係唔係聽得「老細,舒唔舒服~~~?」多?!?!?!?!英文直譯?對唔住,除非你同我講緊笑,否則我勁唔buy囉.]

is this okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay? [dragged on for 5 secs plus elevated to a 5th, at least]

so far so gooooooooood? [ditto]

死未?

今晚很高興!

好像下雨了...25C

嘩!!!這次真的不謝謝面書都不行.

今天回來打開電郵居然看到一個失散了十年的中學同學說在面書上加了我!

要知道,我找了他好久好久,很多同學都好像沒有他的聯絡方法.這麼多年也只有零零碎碎的聽過他一些消息.所以今天看到這個通知電郵,真的好像中了六合彩一樣!

這個同學很多怪理論,看起來好像很不認真,其實做事都是很起勁的.而且他又有點瘋瘋癲癲的,是那種很愛開玩笑的人.中學時我算是安靜的書蟲,不知怎的就是與他很投契.有一次跟學校合唱團出埠比賽,我跟他被編到同一個寄宿家庭.那個晚上是我一生中最精采的一晚之一!所以畢業之後突然間沒有了他的消息傷心了好一會.他就好像「啵!」一聲的從我的生活中消失了.

尋回好友,就像寶物失而復得一樣.希望不要再遺失了他!

***

噢,很高興的還有今天是吳尊生日!(雖然不關我的事...) :P

Pathetic

Cloudy.Hazy.Extremely Dry.Relative Humidity: 49%.28C

This program is pathetic - it's led by professors who are too smart to teach or too enthusiastic to confuse students. Knowledge is lost as communication is totally one-way and incomprenhensible (most of the time), and worst of all, as enthusiamsm of students wane.

Students can only pray that they are discplined enough to learn the materials themselves. Or... a miracle would be bestowed upon them: before the exams, they would wake up finding their brains automatically filled up with all the necessary knowledge.

Free-rider

Cloudy.29C

I've never really met any free-rider in school when we had to do group work as I was usually the luckiest in the group (i.e. other people has done the work voluntarily before I could). And if we have several homework assignments, I don't mind some people not doing one as long as they will make contributions to the other ones. And if so happens I come across an outright free-rider, then I will totally despise that person, ignore and disassociate with him/her. The most difficult case to handle is that the free-rider is a friend, well, actually, a not so close friend (but the closest in class).

What I hated it most was that A was being all nervous about the work and bitching about B for being non-responsive, didn't produce work, blah blah blah. Then, when come face-to-face with B, A became oh-so-friendly all of a sudden, and you would think that they were some long lost friends if you haven't heard about what A has said earlier. So my beautiful Sunday afternoon was spent on a 5-hours homework meeting, listening to A and B talking about boyfriends, work, client meetings, making money and fortune-telling, (which, seriously, I think they didn't know even 100000000000000000th of the real stuff) and working alone on the project.

And about not producing work? Well, I have to say that what A sent out was totally trash. Data tables (don't ask me to explain what these stupid things are) that didn't have the correct values, summary which was the notes jotted down during our meeting and was totally jibberish if we ever turn that in. At least B turned out something that looked like work. What makes the day? A and B did the write up for the same part and so there's another part completely left behind. Ah... what's even better was that there was no response when I asked either of them to sort it out.

It just shows that they don't care at all. I mean, you don't just throw your part out and let the other people deal with it. What if I'm as nonchalant as them and we'll just let the assignment be half done? I mean, yeah yeah, you're busy with work, you might be sick. But hey, an email or sms reply would be nice. At least give me a reason for finishing up the shit work without feeling frustrated.

Well, I know I shouldn't be upset because this is not grade school anymore, and I should be at least glad that this homework wasn't difficult and even someone as dumb as I could handle it. But I need to vent!!!

OK, venting done. Time for bed.

啞了的如意算盤

還是有雲.19C

我並不是經常檢查學校的電郵,前天記起來就去查一下.不看猶自可,一看就不得了!居然那科被譽為大災難的必修電腦程式課被安排在六月上課!!!

六月是我每年放暑假的時候.為甚麼要我們在六月上課???去年的暑期班可是在八月呢,害我空歡喜一場.我還已經拿了六月份的年假,也差點要開始準備計畫行程了.雖然也不是那麼死硬的一定要六月放假.可是在六月放假有多重好處嘛:

- 放暑假,當然要多放幾天.但放長假的話,我只能從每個月的中旬開始放.
- 六月比較不忙.七月頭我們要趕上半年度的種種報表,忙個半死,所以很難走得開.
- 所謂的放暑假其實是要去探我爸.老爸遠在地球的另一方,如果只去一星期的話太累啦,而且又很不划算(錢+體力).所以,每年都是放兩個禮拜.也一併把那個甚麼consecutive leave的要求也解決掉.
- 七月初是老爸的生日.早一點去跟他順便慶祝.(還有父親節呢.)
- 端午節通常都在六月的下半個月,回歸紀念日又在七月頭.這樣子就可以多放兩天.
- 六月還沒到旅遊旺季,機票比較便宜.
- 六月是初夏,風光明媚,也不會太熱.近年的七、八月讓人受不了!(他們不流行有冷氣.)冬天又太冷了.加上今年要讀書,於其他月份根本就走不開.
- 還有, 七、八月也是那鬼地方的暑假,到處都是人.不只機票,連酒店(如果要到其他國家去玩)和其他費用都會比較貴.有些地方可能也會沒開,因為那時候也是他們的暑假嘛.

可是,今年的計畫就被那科鬼東西搞砸了.現在不只要挨不合理地貴的機票,在七月的時候還得在兩個星期之內把所有的東西做好.而且,原本還可以連著兩天公眾假期,現在不行了.好浪費呀!!!!

看完那個電郵,完全沒有心情去安排今年暑假的旅遊了.原本還說要去布拉格或甚麼的.哇~現在哪裡都不想去了!

樂極忘形

天亮了一點.21C

一想到放假,我高興到連甚麼時候開學都忘了.

上禮拜在渾噩間跟旅行社定了行程,因為一心一意要便宜的機票和長一點的假期,完全忘了在月底那該死的考試後隔一天便要開始春季下學期!我還多拿了年假呢!!!還要是昨晚跟柏聊起來才被她提醒了...!

於是乎,今早一回到公司就把那科drop了.

看,又一證明我有多愛我唸的書.才新年而已呀,就這麼懶散.糟了糟了...

Asking Questions in Class

One Fine, Rather Humid, Night.19C

There are two sessions of the first year students in my program. One has classes on one Tuesday plus Saturday afternoon, while the other has a full Saturday of 2 classes. This, of course, was only planned for the core courses, as the electives would have all sorts of different crazy time slots. So, somehow, the weekday + weekend session people don't really mingle with the full weekend session people. I guess it's quite natural - there is simply very little chance for us to see the other class. Even if we do, we have each formed our little circles and it was difficult to break into them. And why should we anyway, if we were just going to the other session because we couldn't make it to our own session?

Anyway, in addition to the different time schedule, it seems that some distinction has been drawn between the two sessions by our professors. My session has been repeatedly commented by various professors as a much quieter class. (One professor has nicely put it that we were the "smarter" class.) They always say that it must be because we are exhausted from work and so we don't ask any questions.

That could be true. But, I think that only constitutes 10% of the reality. I think it's just because my session has more people who have already learnt the material, and are shier to raise questions in class. There are a couple who always ask questions, but seriously, those questions are rather irrelevant. I also noticed that quite a few people like to talk to professors during the breaks. That is good use of time, I reckon. But sometimes I find it quite awkward that those people were really just trying to make conversation because they didn't have anything constructive to ask/talk to the professor. (But, well, social talk could be good. I guess at least the profs will recognise your face.) Then, time is not so well used, at least, maybe from the professor's point of view.

I admire those who ask questions or make comments in class. It is a bold act - you give in yourself to the possibility of being seen as a dim-wit when you ask an obvious question, or you confuse 99% of the class and people start labeling you as an outlier (which, could lead to an outsider). There is this "face" problem. And then, there is this problem of revealing your cards in your hands. Whichever it maybe, people (especially in HK) tend to keep quiet even when they are in doubt. Discussion forums are not popular either for similar reasons.

This then means classes are not very productive as there is no discussion. It is rather a pity, but that seems like how the classes are turning out now. People are afraid to talk - they are afraid to make mistakes. No new ideas are sparkled, no doubts are solved. Professors have to keep asking whether we have any question, as if to reassure themselves that we have been attentive and alert. Classes become boring and unnecessary. We might as well go home and finish the reading and write the exam on the assigned day. Professors may eventually become the person who falls asleep in class.

On the other hand, is it more constructive in the other session that has so many quesitons? I have been to their classes a few times, yet I could not determine. There were some good questions, but most of the time, they were asking questions that I didn't understand (or I couldn't figure out where they got the idea from to ask those questions). Maybe, I wasn't thinking as hard as they did. Maybe, I have gone to classes leaving my brain behind at home.

Maybe, I should start working harder and try harder to understand thoroughly what has be taught in class.

4 down!

i start to think that i'm a brainy box. i think if i take the classes of this course long enough, i certainly will be able to convince myself that i am one.

anyway, i'm so happy that the grade for the last class was finally out - it's been, what, 5 weeks after we handed in that bloody odd take-home exam.

and i'm very happy with the grade i've got - i thought i was going to fail!

ok, back to study!

忙碌預告

雲.風.17C

未來一週將會非常忙碌,因此未必可以堅持每日一篇,甚至連其他網誌都未必能夠每天讀了.下禮拜的電視節目也要錄起來然後通通等禮拜天才看了(噢,我的PB finale要等很久才能看到了.)為甚麼?

因為下禮拜六要考試!今天我們親愛的教授才跟我們講另外一本課本裏有甚麼是我們一定要知道,有甚麼是他推介可以讀的.然後,還有他自己寫的那本有好幾課也要讀!當然囉,如果平時有做reading的話,當然不用擔心.可我就是沒有嘛!哎呀,慘了,這禮拜要乖乖地啃書了.

但最慘的是,考試前一天居然是公司的週年晚會!而我今年很不幸地被阿哥「推薦」去當委員會成員之一(I was volunteered by my boss to be on the annual dinner party committee).其實當委員也沒甚麼關係的.大不了就是要去開幾次會而已.可最糟的是,每一個house都要表演(我們把所有部門分成六個house).這可乖乖不得了!因為我們這幾組都沒有甚麼特別表演慾旺盛的同事,所以招募特別困難.結果是甚麼,當然就是身為委員的我和另外一個女生都要表演囉.唉,下禮拜還得禮拜一到四天天「留堂」排舞!我到現在還不敢跟媽說我也要表演呢!唉...中間還發生了一些不愉快的小插曲,我等比較有空的時候還是會寫一寫.因為我也要發洩呀!至於要表演的就是極度惡俗的歌舞表演另加自改歌詞.歌呢,就是這首:



我唯一能慶幸的就是我不用當女主角!

唉,祝我好運吧!

口不對心

要刮大風囉. 16C

明天要小測,但我一直都還沒有溫習.其實這幾個禮拜都沒有禮拜二晚上的課,但就是沒有心情拿起課本.白白地就把一個禮拜這樣浪費掉.

上一次小測其實不難,不過還是以為會當掉.發回來原來成績也不錯.五分滿分,就被扣掉半分而已;我已很心滿意足.可是有些同學還是為了半分跑去跟教授「理論」.站在他們的角度,半分也是很重要呀.說甚麼也是真金白銀付的學費,嘔心瀝血的啃課本,那半分實在意義重大.而且能多拿半分,就能領先其他人多一點.所以,把它討回來,說甚麼都是應該的.而且,他們堅信他們是對的,那更非討回不可!

對這些緊張自己所相信、所理解的同學們,我是既欽佩又慚愧.雖然我覺得好像是有點小家子氣,但畢竟那自信和勇氣實我所缺乏的.可是,我很容易滿足嘛.而且,我也知道自己只付出了那麼一點點.到底自己寫了甚麼也不大肯定!那,我憑甚麼去跟教授要回我那應該被扣掉的半分呢?

不過有些人,口裏說沒所謂,只求個合格就可以,說又不是要拿獎學金或怎樣的.其實他們不知道有多緊張分數.有時候我也分不清他們緊張是因為怕會不及格還是其他原因.不過當我一聽到他們說,「噢,隨便啦,合格就可以啦」,然後轉頭就埋頭苦讀或跟教授據理力爭的時候,我真的很想吐.

而且,是向他們身上吐.

Over

Sunny.Hazy.22C

I think it's such a relief that this class is finished.

We had a presentation tonight, and after all groups have presented, we each got to vote for the best stock that has been recommended in the presentations. We were only allowed one vote and we had to vote for another group than our own. The members of the group that receives the highest vote will each get extra points to the course.

The result was very surprising. Because, my group has actually won.

I shouldn't even say our group, because it really was just the work of one group mate. He has totally believed in the stock (he picked it), and his rationale. I was very skeptical because the assumptions were way too optimistic. But since I cannot provide better argument to prove the contrary, or come up with a better candidate, I have remained silent.

I don't know. Winning this vote doesn't really prove anything. It doesn't mean that we have done well. It doesn't mean that we know the materials inside out. It doesn't even mean that each one of us knows our stock well.

All I know is that we get the extra points. I think that's the best Christmas present this year.

Approaching Liberty

During the four years of college, I have actually never taken a take-home exam.

Was it lucky? Was it unlucky?

I don't know. It is already difficult to determine whether one's lucky or not if one has to take an exam. (You take an exam to be qualified for something, or as an assessment of what you have learnt. To be able to learn, should certainly be counted as lucky, shouldn't it? But then the ordeal to go over all the material that you have done over a period of time would definitely discount the "luckiness" of being able to learn. It's especially cruxifying if you are not interested in what you are going to be tested on! Or, you are interested in the subject but didn't enjoy or understand the classes.)

So, after so many years of formal schooling, I have my first experience of a take-home exam.

Well, it said no collaboration on the exam cover sheet. But would anyone really follow???

Anyway, it took me 1.5 days to finish the paper, made me feel completely stupid for not knowing what I have learnt and wasted so much time, and exacerbated my sleep deprivation. (I went to classmate PY's place from 1430 till 2245. By the time I got home it's already 0000! Well, don't think it was *that* exact.)

It doesn't matter anymore. This thing will finish tomorrow and I only have the Saturday class until mid Jan. So, in some sense, I have all the time to catch up on the other class, tidy up my war-zone looking study, finish what has been lying on my to-do-list forever and, hopefully, sleep!

Well, I shouldn't really complain now because, at least, I'm not the one doing the presentation tomorrow. I only had to help compile the slides, which I have no idea what it would look like on the big screen, and I delivered it late as I have expected. (What a lovely group mate I am, ain't I? Seriously, I'm not like this usually.) Well well, so much for my contribution to the group.