Wednesday, May 31, 2006

端午節快樂

雨.雨.雨.25C

昨日和同事們(合共13名)合買了端午金多寶。中獎號碼:
10, 16, 21, 30, 33, 48 + 19

嘩!居然中了4獎。嘩!$4,800!這是我咁大個女中過最大銀碼的六合彩。

不過,分開13份後,每人收~$370。唔...... 好過一人獨中5獎o既。但...... 還不夠我昨天捐給紅十字會去賑印尼的災o番。

可能天可憐我最近一直倒霉,兼且昨日又捐錢做好人,所以幫補一下啦。多謝呀!端午節快樂!

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

我係大食lu

好像有點轉晴.25C

點解?點解?點解?點解我食三個飽做早餐都要俾人干涉?仲要個飽係平時o既sizeo既1/3左右.早餐當然要食得豐富o的,如果唔係點有力氣去對住你o地班長舌婦人?!

我係大食呀.又唔駛你養.我媽都唔嫌我,兼且我食得落呀.

唔抵得呀?!

生日快樂!

繼續陰天.23C

今天是J的二十五歲生日.你在世上過了四分一個世紀,有甚麼感覺? (那時候我以為我會很有感慨甚麼的,怎知最後還是"拾下拾下"就過了那一天.

J其實是一個很可愛的朋友.我們很可憐呢.不知為甚麼讓我老媽覺得他是個壞人(大概是我講了甚麼讓她誤會),還叫我要遠離他.所以我們是暗暗地"往來".也難怪,五年前認識他時,他確實是像一個飛仔. :P

但經過這麼多年的努力,他真的進步了很多呀!猶記得,我回來之後,突然發現他的英文有大躍進.相比之下,我那滿腦子要進步要進步的念頭還是停留在念頭的階段,他已經走前了一步.J也是滿腦子要進步的念頭(比我還要厲害),雖然有時候是有點不設實際,但他起碼敢去想!對我,說實的,起了很大的鼓舞作用.[J,其實我"的"起心肝去報UST,還得好好謝你.]

J幽默,唱歌勁(J+W+我是karaoke的伴),頭腦還算轉得快(雖然他討厭數字),對(喜歡的)工作投入,忍耐力高強(這是我唯一能用來理解為何你還不轉工的原因),人緣好(應該說是女性緣,特別是上司!!).可我覺得你太怕寂寞了(誰又不怕呢?),無時無刻都得找人陪你聊...

J,生日快樂!祝你越來越思想成熟(但又不失一份赤子之心),對事情不會只有三分鐘熱度.希望你離你的理想越來越近.

不用祝你艷壓全場呀之類啦,雙子座喎,唔駛啦. :P

Monday, May 29, 2006

保守秘密.分享秘密

天濛濛.雨紛紛.23C(!!!)

這幾天確實應該是非常拼了老命地讀書,我卻天天在"哽"人家的blog.今天終於都看完了.可是有點失落感呀.因為主人家決定了不在那裡繼續寫下去.我還是在她決定了以後才發現她的blog呢.希望她現在心情好些吧.

cuiyao寫的有些其實我也有想過.不過,我比較獨家村,沒人跟我討論.所以就只好獨自發揮那所餘無幾的想像力去自憐自嘆自怨自艾一番.在procrastinate一大輪後,再自我確定一下其實自己都幾好呀.如果你問我的時間是怎樣過的,愛面子的我有怎會一五一十的告訴你我都是在浪費時間呢.最終你得到的答案都會是我含糊敷衍過去了吧.

****

到現在還是覺得我不太融入現在的工作環境/夥伴.坐的地方太開放了,連打個電話回家跟阿媽嗌交旁邊的陳生都可聽得一清二楚(所以不能也不會做此等事情啦).甚麼時候放假;放假要去哪;會做甚麼事都會問個明明白白.是同事間的關心吧;是加深對大家的認識吧;我換個角度如是想.可在這種情況下,就不能選擇性地去分享我的事了(可選擇性地去分享事情是又像在搞小圈子,或說人閒話(我前面的兩位美女經常有如此動作,我是很好奇她們在說啥的!:P)).要是給組裏的大嘴巴聽到你要做甚麼/發生甚麼事情的話,那很快很多人都會知道了.是我喜歡他們不夠多吧,才會有這種想法.要是沒人來關心我的時候,我又會認為我是孤兒仔了.我真係煩過梵帝岡呀.

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說起分享秘密,我今天跟J說了我昨晚的一個怪夢.話說,我好像跟家人+朋友到歐洲某城旅遊,突然間我的"朋友"(面目模糊,又不覺得我認識他們)遞了一副相給我,相中人正是已離職的Bloomberg guy!J說我中毒已深.而且、好奇呀,照片好像是偷拍的.哎o也.最慘是我已經是第二次夢見這仁兄.但.. 但.. 但.. 其實我是不認識他的呀!哎o也.春天都快過了,現在來春心盪漾好像已經太遲了吧?

P.S. 貼張公司相做做點綴.

Friday, May 26, 2006

又跛腳

陰天."厭厭悶悶".27C

很懶很懶.Keep起了很多post但都還沒動手"寫".今早在巴士上想好了一篇,但還沒下車就已忘得一乾二淨了.我想我有需要用那種thought recognition software了.(Voice recognition 也不够,thought recognition可以連聲都不用出嘛.够懶啦O掛? :P)

我又跛腳了.星期二大PK後,雙knees勁損.一彎就會牽扯到傷處,然後就很痛啦.所以走路時又要拐下拐下囉.不過經過三天的悉心照料,傷口旁邊已經沒有那麼紅腫,也沒有那麼多的黃色物體留出來了.[混著那白色的藥膏和紅色的皮肉,有够壯觀的!]況且,今天有護士姐姐幫忙洗傷口,安心得多了.(對,今天去覆診了,怕死嘛.那黃綠醫生大概只有看了2分鐘,然後又再給我5天的抗生素.我媽說,跌唔死你,食抗生素食死你呀!我媽從來都是滿口的金玉良言.)而且,而且,手肘和右掌的都已結痂了.應該離終點不遠了吧?昨天跟J說笑,說那傷口在掌的那處,以後好了還是會有個痕.那我的掌紋不就變了嗎?我改變了我的命運耶!

嘩.我媽說因為我把那兩個錢幣(?)帶回家來,弄得她心神不寧.今天清晨時居然聽到"鏘鏘"聲.所以明天要去拜神囉.但我今天把它們放回抽屜裏,又沒有甚麼不祥的事情發生呀.下午還有headhunter打來找我呢,問我又沒有興趣到獅子銀行去(獅子銀行是我的推斷,那小女生並沒有明言是那一家公司).所以我說,我的霉運跟那兩個錢幣應該是無關的.發現它們也只是時又湊巧而已啦.

真的好應該溫下書.但...唉唉唉!

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

勸交

天陰.有風.26C

朋友A與朋友B近來有些齟齬,A說要跟B保持距離.其實我不知道要怎樣回應.這種說大不大,說小不小的事情,很容易變成冰凍三尺、糾纏不清的誤會.大家都已經不是小學生,那種"我不跟你玩了"的遊戲應該早已消失在我們這年紀了.可是,對當事人來說,這種事情都好像是天要掉下來的一等一大事,旁人又怎麼勸得了呢.因為本身對B的認識有限,所以只能勸A去好好跟B談談吧.心想,若果真正視對方為好友,一定會在乎對方對自己的看法.那麼,就會用盡辦法去把結解開.畢竟,彼此的友誼還是值得珍惜的罷.

這讓我想起在綿羊國時唸中學的一件事.那時候我有兩個很要好的朋友,雙生兒P喬爾絲.一個來自寶島,一個跟我一樣從東方之珠來.本來這個組合就是有點奇怪,但人在異鄉,其實誰跟誰能碰在一起,當真是「不要問我從哪裡來」.知到背景重要嗎?是重要的,但不是那麼的重要.


話說,中六那年P突然不知為何鬧翻.雞婆的我兩邊去做說客,嘗試替對方說些好話,製造個機會讓她們好好聊,以此化解一切恩怨情仇.但事情一直拖著,她倆關係時好時壞.時間一長,在我們這三人的核心小組邊緣的朋友們開始也來幫口,希望她倆可以回到以前的友好關係.我不知道說客們跟P說了甚麼,我也在眾多說客們工作的時候退下火線,免得救火不成反變成煽風點火.但,從某一天開始,P正式從此不相往來,就算同班也可以互相視而不見.我嘗試多次搶救,但不是不知從何下手,就是有一方拒絕被救.我也只好就此罷了.她們的事情,我又能做甚麼呢?而且,我不想讓她們以為我想要邀功或甚麼的,所以我更不敢再說些甚麼了.我一直很懷疑自己是不是罪魁,有沒有說了些不該說的話,或做了不該做的事,導致她倆絕交.然後為了讓自己好過點,就開始想像是不是有說客趁機的挑撥離間.那麼,導火線就不是我啦.

若干年後我問P她們那時候為甚麼會搞得那麼僵,P卻一臉疑惑的說不知道.去問,得到的答案也差不了多遠.而她倆也像受驚的小動物,對這事不聞不問不想不碰,也不去查找源頭.反正,這事就變成了連金田一也無法解開的疑團.後來,P也有見過面;說說客套話,問問近況,偶爾傳來一兩下尷尬的笑聲.就好像新相識的朋友一樣,陌生得不能再陌生.正是J所說的「覆水難收」.發生過的事怎能就一筆抹掉呢.人的腦袋還沒發展到有選擇性記憶清洗功能的地步呢.說到底,發生過的就會留下烙印.印可能會淡化,但永不可能消失.

而這事留給我的烙印,就是「永不永不勸交症候群」,還有一堆的遺憾.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

OMG. The Trailer is OUT!

CRAZY.Rain.25C

The trailer is out finally. Go to http://www.devilwearspradamovie.com/. It's much better than the one on Yahoo. :)

可愛的同事們

倒水一般.天黑黑.23C

如果你和你的同事一同收到一個request,而他/她以超快的速度回覆了.之後,你因好奇而去比較你的答案有否跟她的一樣時發現了差別,你會怎樣?

可能他的做法也是對的,只是大家的出發點不一樣.我通常會嘗試了解一下他的理據.但因為這位同事(在我眼中)自視甚高(因試過提出其他建議後,他花了最少五分鐘來解釋他的做法),因此此等無關痛癢的小問題就此算了.否則,如斯「打破沙盤問到篤」的我,怎會如此輕易放過.

我想很多人對這種情況都不會有甚麼回應.又或者根本一開始時連查都不會查.尤其若那request是小事一樁的話,根本就划不來去糾正那位同事了.又特別如果那位同事的年資比你要高的話,就更加不用花氣力去衡量這麼多了. Case Closed.

那,我又在發甚麼囉囌呢?

我只是想,我變了.可能是因為對這份工作沒有太大的熱誠.可能是因為其他的同僚都不是那麼事事上心.可能是我察覺到自己以往的過分吹毛求疵而潛意識地改變了.又可能是我怕被發現我的工作態度跟他們的不一樣而被排斥或當成怪物.又或者我只是厭倦要再花我人生中寶貴的五分鐘來聽一堆跟我不相干而又狗屁不通的廢話.我就只怕我已被潛移默化了.成為他們的一份子,做一個「三等員工」(等放lunch,等收工,等出糧;是為三等.當然還有很多其他等), 對自己的工作不求甚解,抱著做完就算的心態.我好怕呀.我轉來還沒够一年就有這種想法,你叫我以後的日子要怎樣過??

看來,是時候重整一下,向下一步出發.

Saturday, May 20, 2006

What a Beautiful Day!

Drizzly.24C

Oh. I wasn't talking about today. [Today's miserable.] The pictures were taken yesterday, after typhoon was gone. When I stepped out of my apartment building, on the way to work (left pic), I gasped at the magnificent colour that was displayed hight up. The typhoon that has just left HK was quite strange. First of all, her route was strange. She was initially heading northwesterly, but then suddenly decided to switch to straight north, which meant heading towards to HK. Then all of a sudden, when we were preparing to have the first typhoon 8 for the year, she has decided, once again, to change her direction and hit Shanwei instead. But thankful to typhoon Pearl, we have benefitted a couple of days with fresh air and clean sky. It's very rare to have such an opportunity in HK to see this azure in the sky. :P

And then on the bus, just before I got off the bus, I managed to get a picture of the monumental IFC 2 (right pic). Seriously, the way that it's standing doesn't look very good. J said that the picture looks as if it were taken in Thailand. Well, who knows? But I didn't mean that. In one way, it marks a new landmark for the city, but it has totally destroyed the skyline of the waterfront, and blocked out the beautiful green backdrop in the far back. When you expect a smooth graduation of elevating architecture from the waterfront to the Victoria Peak, all of a sudden (if you are looking at HK Island from Tsim Sha Tsui), you have this phallic skyscraper monster on the right. So long as people think that it'll do good for the city (finacially, image-wise, or whatever), it wouldn't be seen as an eyesore.

lala~!

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

The Trailer

Typhoon 1.Very Windy.23C

The trailer for The Devil Wears Prada is "out". Honestly, it can't be classified as a trailer. It's more like a first view/interview clip. But it at least fulfilled my desire to see bits of the movie.

Well, it's actually not as glamorous as I have expected. Andy is not BLONDE?! But you just can't help noticing how well fit/cut her clothes are... so that's really why I want to see the movie. My imagination has been exhausted to think of what clothes she would be wearing to work today or the next day.

lala... anyway, I should be able to catch it when I return from my summer vacation... hehe...

忽發奇想

颱風3號.微雨.狂風亂吹的一天.24C

聽說,如果你跟一個人相處一段日子,你會跟那個人長得越來越像.

其實一天裏,我對著同事們的時間比對著我媽還要長.

哇!好危呀!

老細,下次請人時,可不可以請個靚o的o既?

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Urgh...

it's only tuesday
but it feels like the end of everything

到頭來還是一場空

Typhoon 1.Cloudy.Drizzling.25C

Urgh. He's gone.
I didn't get his "this is my last day" email.
Urgh.

No wonder I suddenly felt very bored and down yesterday, for no reason.

But I have his phone numbers, so if I really want to be a stalker I can track him down.. hahaha...

What a great motivation to come to work from now on... :P

******
Here's my favourite song recently, even though Andy Hui isn't at his peak performance (esp. his voice):

大愛 許志安
作曲:方大同|填詞:林夕|編曲:蔡德才|監製:蔡德才

無數男友陪你的日日夜夜 仍然愛你到花謝
臨去前你能說的就是道謝 如何報答我多些

怎麼你逝去 我們先最像情侶 我餘生也只好 幻想著受罪
我的眼淚可以 流出洪水 是真是虛 人逝去怎追

其實 甚麼放低 甚麼不放低 讓色當空 全因心有鬼
如來佛祖都心虧 佛理可否化得開我一切

無數連次 疼我的日日夜夜 原來你也會不捨
純綷朋友情 博得特別多謝 原來我也配守夜

枯乾也是你 惡疾使你未完美 我平生可首次 護親著別離
我的素願得到 又喜又悲 又生又死 緣盡卻記起

到底 甚麼放低 甚麼不放低 未可徹底 忘掉了一切
如來佛祖都心虧 沒法將擁有的包袱放低

時間在理順我的汗毛 而有日我亦會剃鬚
忘記是人生 天賜最大 方法活到更好
那個做到 無喜惡恨愛 便能得道
受過苦 口裏只會講及怎麼做到
人那裏會看破劫數

到底 甚麼放低 甚麼不放低
在生記得 難道會失禮
如來佛祖都心虧 唸過心經會否將愛縮細

但我追憶會否超過今世

Sunday, May 07, 2006

重遊淺水灣

大致天晴.天氣炎熱.28C

今天天氣十分炎熱,所以跟我媽去了淺水灣.[上次我媽聽了有個auntie和uncle去了之後,流露出十分艷羨的表情.我只是輕輕地諷刺了一下,就被罵了個狗血淋頭.這次算是個補償吧.]沙灘是乾淨了許多,但已經有點不認得了!若不是那棟穿了個洞的影灣園站在後面,我根本就不知道要下車...不過,這可能只是顯示了我有多熟悉我的香港而已!

沙,也好像比以前幼細了,雖然還是跟去年到過的南葡的海灘不能相比...但無論如何,還是很感謝上蒼賜給了香港這一片好山好水,讓我能在鬧市的不遠處就能享受到陽光與海灘!

p.s. 今天還戴了contact lens 哩...雖然心裏感覺有點怕怕的,但醫生說滿意嘛...

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

More Operation

Breezy.Rainy(finally).23C

I didn't have time to write about my retinal holes fixes operation the other day, but the *great* news is it's so much fun that my doctor said I'm going to get more tomorrow. So after work, I'll be going to the hospital to get more laser through my eyeball to patch the holes in my right eye. So to prevent the little puddle from overflooding and tearing the whole thing down. Here's a little sketch from my lovely doctor.

Alas! What a great start to my long weekend.

[well, the hospital will close early on the public holiday eve, so my operation was moved to 1.30pm. But instead of being on time, my doctor has a habit of being late. So I have waited for him for another 2 hours, for a half an hour operation. Accumulated waiting time to see dear Dr. Kwok is now come to a handsome total of 6 hours. Well, considering I've only seen him 4 times. Let's hope that the situation will improve on Saturday. (yes, I have a follow up appointment on Saturday.)]